Introduction
Ever had that moment when you just want to hit the pause button on the chaos of the world and disappear into your own little oasis? Well, you’re not alone! Eight years ago, I found myself navigating the whirlwind of life and suddenly realized—surprise!—I was as out of place as a cat wearing a dog costume at a bark-off. Yeah, that out of place. This article dives into my journey of retreating from the noise and finding solace on the fringes of society—and trust me, it’s a wild ride filled with introspective revelations and a touch of humor. So grab your popcorn, settle in, and let’s explore the beauty and madness of living quietly on the edges, away from all those metaphorical snarling dogs! Want to know more about my quirky insights? LEARN MORE.
I can’t believe it’s been eight years since I realized I needed to withdraw from the fabric of society, to live somewhere on the margins of life. I felt out-of-place, in the middle of it all. No one was benefitting.
This was in 2017. As I’ve said for years, I hate strife. There is no reason for me to stand in the middle of a war, when I have the option to retreat.
My grandfather wrote of his “nervous disposition” in his letters. I think I may have inherited it.
This is my grandfather, as depicted by one of his college friends, after he quit his job as a professor of English and Library Sciences. He opted to raise chickens and build adobe houses. Easier on the nervous system!
I made this adjustment, not fully understanding the “why”. I understand it a lot better now. It’s hard to think, in the crossfire.
This may be due to my Mercury and Mars conjunction in Libra. My head and ping pong back and forth, into oblivion. To my great shock, I began to crave the quiet solitude I experienced, growing up. Better than standing between two barking, snarling dogs! How about standing in the middle of six or seven, snarling dogs?
It’s hard to hear your own thoughts, these days. It’s also hard to work out what you really think and how you really feel, with all the threatening chatter.
Also consider, I have Virgo in the 8th house. This describes a deep thinker, with private thoughts. My progressed chart has a large stellium in Scorpio in the 6th. It’s similar energy, but it’s below the horizon which explains my wanting to withdraw from public life, a good bit.
These placements are also deeply interested in secret, hidden knowledge. Taboo topics, basically. My progressed chart is so overwhelming, I feel it’s unreasonable to think I could survive, without taking time to pull my horns in and really think about things others don’t want to think about.
I’ve learned a lot over the last eight years. I’m full to the gills with repulsive information… which is quite funny, I suppose. I contain the taboo, which feels familiar, truth be told.
Things will shift in my progressed chart, in about six months. But when I looked at this, I failed to noticed the huge stellium will remain in my 6th house, for more than 25 years, assuming I don’t move. I am simply going to be a hidden repository of deep insight, helping people, for the rest of my life, though my feelings (moon) will change.
Believe it or not, I’m good with this. You just can’t fight the tape.
So I’m the person you all when your problem is raw and gnarly or when you need to get to the root of the problem, efficiently.
The future?
<– This is where I’ll end up, if I live another 25 years.
Natal Mars and Mercury in the 9th, becomes Mars and Mercury in Sagittarius, just like the 8th becomes Scorpio.
It’s like it was all written, the day I was born.
What personal mysteries have you discovered over the course of your lifetime?